I am troubled with the images of my past lovers, now that I am on a spiritual path what should I do?
The Teacher answered,
What you once loved impressed itself in your aura, and since you had many lovers, you have also many images.
Student
Can't I ever get rid of them? Can't I erase them?
The Teacher answered:
This
image (of love) will always be there, it has many sides, and they all relate to
your own projections. Think of a nut, or an egg, or a seed with its
'shell'. You crack open the seed, and cast the 'shell' right? So as
long as you or anyone deludes yourself about the fundamentally invisible
forms in which things are ALSO, then you believe in a naive and
habitual way - you do whatever worked for you before your spiritual
training began. And that means the teachings you absorbed in the
beginning - there are shells remaining now - but the seeds are gone, and
those seeds are no longer going to germinate (Germain is the same as
'Germinate'). You can't live on the shells, but they haunt you. Ask your
self 'why' are they there? Because you will remember when they once
germinated - but they can't now - they had there time. So, out of your
good karma, and drive, and will to find a source where the seeds could
be obtained that didn't just 'grow fast' or were 'choked by weeds' or
came on 'dry soil' , your soul said to your EGO - you get the right
seeds now, we did the three that one: were rocks (physical) two: choked
by old memories that interfere with your present, and you spend all
your time weeding them (aether body) or three: dry ground: the sin of
wrong desires that 'grow fast' but have no roots (we all know this
right) and the associated and resulting ghosts of fear etc (the astral
body).
In
the Parable of Jesus, the Sower has to throw the seeds over all four
Soils, and only the 'soil' provided by the Ego has the power to sustain
the germination. From that tree comes the Seeds for the next planting
and becomes St Germain.